dear Diary,

It's done.
I'm done. I'm game over.

It had gotten me.

Made 2 parties pissed off. The 2 of my closest people in life.

For once, Life felt like it was the lowest..... Till I force myself to see christ on the cross again. It's far worse.

Apologied to my mum and dad, and they accepted it. Actions gotta show them, diary. My actions. I'm gonna do so.



But... For her...

She doesn't wanna talk to me ever again I suppose. No, diary, the she here is referring to the other author of this blog.
Cant blame her for that, I've been quite a clown for lying certain things, lying certain impt things. If only I know that she wouldnt mind at all, in the first place. if only. ):

Guess there's also a pride factor involved. I never wanted to lose out to the girl I Like. But then again, Lying isnt the right way too. Argh, diary.


But diary, one thing's for sure. It's that, My intentions at the end of the day were good, and I love her with everything I've ever got. Though the possesiveness and everything at times, but I'm learning to be that perfect boyfriend. That's for sure, diary.


Do you think she'll ever know about that?

I live with sorrows and regrets now.
and diary, I'm really sorry. really really sorry.

Nothing I can do but to learn and to redeem now, diary.
And that's the only thing I can do now.


From today forth. I sign with my blood.

Let actions prove things, diary.